Adventurer.
One word to sum me up. that’s it. I love new, shiny can’t-wait-to-try-that experiences.
Here is a list of things I’ve learned so far on this wild ‘n crazy ride:
Anyone can be a rockstar. I am a rockstar and so are you.
A real stand-up, bona fide rockin’ the globe, playing night after night to thousands of people rockstar. And it was awesome. The funny thing was, my experience as the bassist in Vixen led me to figure out that people the world over are pretty much the same. From Portugal to Japan to Canada to all points in between, everyone is looking for respect and love. Love rules. It really does. And yes, I am still a rockstar. I firmly believe with every cell of my being, that we are all rockstars. Just let it flow. Let it happen.
You can take away the glitz and glam but you can’t take away who I am.
When the Vixen house fell down, I picked myself up and started doing things. The first thing was to realize, hey, Ma, I got me no skills that will get me a ‘real job’. So I improvised. One thing led to another and with determination and a very positive attitude (thank you, Dad) things just started happening. The universe responds to energy. Whether it’s happy or sad, elated or anxious, the universe says, okay, I can mirror that. The decade post Vixen was one of discovery. Vegetarianism, many bands including Havana 3 am (awesome blues/rock band), learning to play guitar with a cool blues tuning and then winning awards as the Best Female Guitarist in Los Angeles (gush with pride), winning Song of the Year in the John Lennon Songwriting Contest with the band my husband, Bam and I started called Bubble. (how cool is that?!) On to producing albums for people like Claudia Christian and writing songs for Jesse Camp and on and on.
So what did I learn in all of that? I create my own destiny. Nobody is responsible for me except me. Friends+family can help me but they cannot hand me happiness or success on a platter. I stopped being a victim and became a victor. Finally.
Death is a natural part of life.
Flowers bloom and die. Our beloved pets die before we want them to.
Things shifted when my mom died. It altered my perceptions of the universe as I began to face mortality like I never had. I learned the power of letting go of my preconceived notions of myself and suddenly, I could do other things outside of the world of rock n roll. Because after all, there is so much to learn out there, isn’t there? I discovered knitting which was very therapeutic during my mother’s illness and wrote a knitting book that was published by the coolest craft publishers ever. My editor, Melanie Falick is nothing short of a yarn genius and it was an honor to work with her on a project that changed my path. I stopped being ‘fill in the blank’ and started doing.
Risk your soul and you can climb mountains.
Risk nothing and you will get bored.
I finally got into public speaking when Bam and I moved 3000 miles from Los Angeles to South Florida in 2009. No guitar, no amplifiers, no big stages (yet!), no lights. Just me and my message to heal the world. One speech at a time. Resistance? Hell yeah. Tears? Hell yeah. Plenty of them. The terrifyingly real parts of myself that survived a hurricane in the Bermuda Triangle on a boat and lived through crash between me, my 1970 Mustang Coupe and an 18 wheel semi-truck on Route 66 in a blizzard, well those experiences seemed easy next to speaking authentically. Oh sure, I can get up there and talk. I can write a speech that ‘sounds good’. But when you seek authenticity, it requires the utmost truthfulness. The baring of your soul that gets YOU to feel something. Something different and something bigger than yourself.
I was changed.
Life is an evolution.
The question I get asked the most is if I still play music? YES! A resounding yes. It’s like breathing. We have two pianos, drums and guitars everywhere and are constantly creating. Music has healing powers that are universal. The music I wrote to heal myself in 1992 is different to the music I write today to heal myself. I still rock. Loud. Proud. And yes, the amp is on eleven. I play hard. I work hard. Sometimes I swear I even think hard!
Truth is merely a matter of perception.
My truth is not your truth. My truth today is not my truth tomorrow. Everything is shifting and the rainbow it makes is breath taking.
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3 Comments
Very nice words, that’s y i said that u r a rock n roll hero!
So a jerk of jitters bounced from my skin reading your story. Love your human-ness.
Ohhh! I like that! Thank you Deanne for your wonderfulness.